excuses, excuses

please excuse my silence online.  i have discovered HOUSE.  and i find him oddly hot. so....that's what i've been doing.  that, and  lots of sudoku.  

i suspect i will look back on this time as the Hump.  captain j has been gone long enough for me to have really settled into my life here.  there seem to be just as many days like the one i'm living now ahead of me as behind me.  i'm not complaining.  there's lots to do and i'm definitely glad i chose to live out this year apart here.  but things are definitely set in a routine and the end seems far off.

even our skype or phone conversations are the same almost everyday.  he wants to know about what i did, i want to know how his days went, and usually the same thing happened today that happened yesterday.  

that's not bad for me.  it's just how it is.  but i think the sameness is getting hard for captain j.  they don't have weekends or days off there, so he does the same thing EVERY SINGLE DAY.  get up, work out, eat, see patients and do paperwork, lunch, see patients and do paperwork, dinner, call/skype family, sleep.

he's due for some r&r septemberish, but i think it's still far enough away that it feels like it will never get here.  and i have this real fear that saying goodbye will be doubly difficult when we say goodbye after such a short trip.  

maybe a disney trip is in order this weekend to shake off whatever this is.