Thursday, July 2, 2009

today was D day

today was the day.  natty turned 16 months today.  i told myself i would nurse her for 12 months.  i went 4 more months more than that, and figured that it was finally time when she chomped down on my nipple every four sucks.  seriously.  yesterday when i started bleeding i told her to enjoy her last supper.

there was much crying today.  oh how she LOVED my boob.  but it finally sank in and she has finally fallen asleep having accepted this new development.

now what to do.  i am totally engorged and hurting.  i know about the cabbage leaf thing, but alas there is no cabbage in the house and it's nearing midnight.  i shall have to get some tomorrow.  for tonight, i guess i'll go let out the pressure a bit and then turn in for the night.

honestly, i am giddy with freedom.  BUT, when she finally closed her eyes and my ears weren't ringing from her shrill cries anymore, i kind of wondered if i'd done the right thing.  i mean, it was TIME.  but i really enjoyed being that close to her and being a source of comfort for her than no one else could be.  if you haven't had a chance to experience it, it's kind of hard to explain.

anyway, what's done is done.  hopefully she'll sleep through the night from pure exhaustion and tomorrow i won't be hurting too much.

4 comments:

vivian said...

i'm so sorry to hear how painful it is to stop breastfeeding. i stopped breastfeeding my daughter when she was about 14 months old and it was difficult at first, but she seemed to be OK with it after a few days of being apart from the breast. as for engorgement issues, do you have a breast pump? when i was engorged, i pumped just enough milk to relieve the pressure in my breasts and after doing this for about 5-6 days, it didn't hurt too much. good luck and hope it gets better for you and natty!

Tracey said...

You are definitely doing the right thing! I've heard of some special teas that are supposed to help with decreasing milk supply (you should do a google search). My lactation consultant also suggested taking a decongestant like Claritin D to do the same thing. Good luck! And also, great job nursing for 16 months!

OTRgirl said...

End of an era, huh? It must be hard not to have Captain J around as you hit each of those milestones.

Asianmommy said...

I weaned slowly over time--3 times a day for a few days, twice a day for a few days, once a day for a few days--before I finally stopped. Maybe you could try pumping like this.